somedays

somedays are hard for no reason. somedays you wake up and you feel the whole world crashing in on you. the more things change, the more you have to keep up with your life. and somedays the past creeps in and reminds you of all your failures.
and you can choose to listen to it, or you can choose to overcome it. i think it's okay to struggle. i think it's okay to ask for help.
because not all people are bad and some people want to help you. some people see the potential you have more than you can at the moment.
sometimes you have to be strong, even when you feel weak.

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love movement

i think the awareness about bullying and accepting people for who they are is really cool. it's all over the place and it seems like for once, people are coming together to spread love. STOP THE HATE. everyone deserves to be loved and to love themselves. this life is too hard to be alone and too beautiful to suffer through it. xoxo take care of yourself.

It's not the pain I’m afraid of; I know about the pain. What I’m afraid of is the end of this small, sweet dream.”- Stephen King

"Men always want to be a woman’s first love. That is their clumsy vanity. We women have a more subtle instinct about things. What we like is to be a man’s last romance."- Oscar Wilde

"Our real discoveries come from chaos, from going to the place that looks wrong and stupid and foolish."- Chuck Palahniuk,

"If nothing else, one day you can look someone straight in the eyes and say, ‘But I lived through it. And it made me who I am today."

"I was so cynical, just inconvincible, nobody seemed worth trusting. But sure enough, just when I’d near given up, you appeared there among the destruction."-

Kate Voegele

"We are all unkind from time to time. We all do things we desperately wish we could undo. Those regrets just become part of who we are, along with everything else. To spend time trying to change that, well, it’s like chasing clouds."- Libba Bray

"The most exhausting thing in life is being insincere."- Anne Morrow Lindbergh

“you’re letting her think you’re emotionally available. you’re letting her think she has a chance. &; there is nothing worse in the world then thinking you have a chance, when you really dont.”- Grey's Anatomy

rain rain.

it was a rainy day in los angeles. thought i should post in honor of it.

change. thats the funny thing about life, you move on when you least expect it. things fall into place in a blink of an eye.
you may feel like the waiting and the hurt lasts forever, but somehow change will come. when you no longer have time to analyze every small detail, you soon realize it's because you are living free.
living free turns you into the person you are meant to become. don't stop fighting for happiness. it is out there.

mka obsessed.

somedays i just have to remind myself that i'm not alone and that not everyone is going to hurt me. i don't know how, but somehow i need to learn how to trust people again. and more importantly, i need to remember how to open up.
“The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain.”—Jennifer Aniston

“Among other things, you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behaviour... many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them.. Just as some day... someone will learn something from you... And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry.”

don't let fear get in the way of who you are meant to be.

i've learned...

i've learned that hangovers really don't care how much work you have to do that day.i've learned that it's not enough to just show up, it's about genuinely and truthfully being present. 100% in your body and your mind.

i've learned that it's not living in a big city that is scary or whatever people tell you, it's going after something alone. day in and day out.

i've learned that you only have yourself, at some point you have to be strong enough to take care of yourself, i mean really take good care of yourself.

i've learned that having a passion isn't a maybe thing, it's the only thing.

i've learned that confidence comes from good health first and foremost.

i've learned that music never fails. not once has it failed me.

i've learned that it's easier to hurt inside than to let it out. being too strong for too long is not okay, no ones asking you to do that.

i've learned that making people laugh is more fulfilling to me than having something to laugh at.

i've learned that being independent doesn't have to be lonely.

i've learned that wearing a cute outfit always makes your day run a little better.

it's not a maybe thing

i got miserably lonely today, as i do quite often living alone in Los Angeles. but then i remembered that i am exactly where i need to be. that even though things aren't perfect right now, they will be worth it one day.

i cannot imagine being anywhere else, doing anything else. i'm so use to fucking things up that i sometimes tell myself i'm going to fail before seeing things through.

i need to stop that. not this time. because this time i am where i need to be. i will not ruin this opportunity. i'm just trying to be a better person and let go of my past.

this whole thing i'm doing- well trying to do- it's not about living in Hollywood, it's not about celeb sightings, it's not about nightlife and clubs, it's not about fame or glamour.

it's about my passion for acting. that's all it's ever been. so i'm kind of over everything else right now. i just need to focus on being the best person i can be so i can portray characters honestly.

i need to entertain. i need to make people laugh, because that, well that's everything.

"I always wanted to do comedy and anybody that wants to do comedy has to have some need to please people or make people laugh."- Emma Stone

"I have never wanted to do anything but this [acting]. One day i just had this really strong urge to go and do it... I knew it made me happy. That's all."- Emma Stone ♥