ok, it's alright with me

"The artist is nothing without the gift, but the gift is nothing without work." - Emile Zola

As you learn how to survive, you learn how to appreciate. As you learn how to love, you learn how to live.

well here i am. sitting on my bed (futon) with 2 days left of summer classes... my life feels bittersweet because i already have to see people leave & keep on keepin on all by myself. it takes a lot to be strong here, but i'm trying really hard because i know i want this.
i'm not quite sure what i will do with my time off, but i think i will be content just getting back to other forms of art. i'll prob start painting again, taking photos, journaling, etc. & not to sound lazy but i want to watch as much material possible- movies, series, classics, anything even if it sucks just to observe.

"Waste no tears over the grieves of yesterday." - Euripides

currently playing eric hutchinson on repeat. check him out. it's dope.

beverly hills>>

SORRY I HAVE BEEN TERRIBLE ABOUT POSTING!!!
i took my brother to the airport on Sunday & he is back in the south. it seems impossible that he was here for a month & is already gone! so now i'm lonely! WAHH...
these pictures are from last weekend. my friend has a sick house in beverly hills so she had a bunch of friends over & we got a bit rowdy.i love these girls in mah pics, they are from my summer class. a few are coming back with me in the fall, but others have different plans elsewhere.
***kickback, and let the future unfold.
on Sunday night me & dani went to see RENT @ the Hollywood Bowl. The cast included: Vanessa Hudgens, Nicole from the Pussycat Dolls, & George Brady. i have seen RENT on Broadway 3 times, so it was hard to live up to those standards. but they only had a week to rehearse for it, so i was pleasantly pleased with the show.
... future mimi? maaaaybe...
this is my last week of summer classes. so i'll have a lot more time to update my blog in a few days.
grrrr. trying to rock the new hair...? change is good.... hmm, maybe.

MGMT @ the GREEK.

i saw MGMT last night @ the Greek theatre in downtown LA. they are one of my favorite bands, but they always get criticized for being "terrible live." i saw them at coachella and they were decent, but last night they were so much better. i think since they are still so new that they just needed practice-- so you can tell they are getting better on stage. what pisses me off though, is that they made their second album really weird. i still like it, but it doesn't have any catchy songs like "Kids" or "Electric Feel" apparently they "don't want to be mainstream" so what? 1. they aren't mainstream/pop they just got a lot more fans than expected. 2. don't change your sound because you don't want to be famous... booo hoooo. anyways, still love them. lets hope they come out with a 3rd album more like their first. *******

There's a place I'd like to go somewhere out west,

It's not specific, and the pictures show it best.

I know there's trees I know there's sand and I know there's grass,

I know it's somewhere in the past.

There's a girl out there who's lookin for it too,

She's not sure when she'll go or exactly what she'll do.

If I am doomed am I the first on or the last?

Am I just someone from the past?

The memories fade

Like looking through a fogged mirror

Decision to decisions are made

And not bought,

But I thought this wouldn’t hurt a lot.

I guess not

I'll sit and listen to the sound of sand and cold

Twisted diamond heart, I'm the weekend warrior

My predictions are the only things I have

I can amplify the sound and light and love

I'm a curse and i'm a sound,

When I open up my mouth,

There's a reason I don't win,

I don't know how to begin

Or I'm heading out at breakfast

Take a drink, take a drag

One more coffee, ugly hat

No more mirrors, woolen bag

i found blood and i saw stars

all in the backseat of your car

and i told you it was love

but you don't wanna know the truth

i was young and in my prime

with my heart still filled with fear

and it goes on bleedin'

I'm feeling rough, I'm feeling raw, I'm in the prime of my life.

Let's make some music, make some money, find some models for wives.

I'll move to Paris, shoot some heroin, and fuck with the stars.

You man the island and the cocaine and the elegant cars.

This is our decision, to live fast and die young.

We've got the vision, now let's have some fun.

Yeah, it's overwhelming, but what else can we do.

Get jobs in offices, and wake up for the morning commute.

Moonlight on my floor

Shining through the roof

They got the city surrounded

As if I needed proof

I forgot my fear

Feel it's on the rise

Buried by all of the pieces

Falling from the sky

We are alone, the world is not our home,

we breathe the air, we care,

We feel the pain, we cannot explain,

there are no words to be heard.

We move along, we are pretty strong, we breathe the air, we care.

And remember what it felt like

To be alone

Sitting in the sunlight

All alone

It was the future reflected

It felt familiar but new

A street was missing a building

The kids had something to do

I was a loner

I was just waiting by myself

When you, warped temptress

Rose to bring me happiness and wealth

Black tears, black smile, black credit cards and shoes

You can call all the people you want

But it's you who's being used

Under your black eyes, honey

Right beneath your nose

A curse on all creation

Every single thing you know

White smoke, white light, white marble on the floor

It would only take a few seconds of darkness

to figure out what's in store

Little girl

Past the point of love

Shattered and untied

Waiting to pick up the pieces

That make it out alright

ALiVE.

why hello thuuur dahlin. goodness, i have had no time to blog! it is so sad, i knowww.

“You know it’s been said that we just don’t recognize the significant moments of our lives while they’re happening. We grow complacent with ideas, or things or people and we take them for granted and it’s usually not until that thing is about to be taken away from you that you’ve realized how wrong you’ve been that you realized how much you need it, how much you love it.”- one tree hill

“Anything less than mad, passionate, extraordinary love is a waste of your time.”

once again we went to Voyeur on Thursday. (below) football player for the Titans! then later on i was walking through the crowd and this guy backed up and cleared a pathway for me to get by & i look up and it's E from entourage! he is SOOOO small! so presh. i am way taller than him haha

my favorite spotting of the night was when i was leaving the bathroom area and i saw LEONARDO DECAPRIO.

he is so talented, but i wish he still looked like this....

anyways, it is the end of the weekend, which means i need to do some homework and get prepared for next week. i have to take my school very seriously because i have to re-audition for the year, even though i already got in... they just want to make sure their students are improving. so i do not want to fuck it up.

currently obsessed with: knee high socks, bright nail polish, anything indie, doc martin style shoes... well i've been obsessed with these things for a while now. but stillll haaaaay

hippie chick. indie soul. creative mind.

"some are always there to make you happy when you're feeling sad.

we'll never feel so safe again. but love always remains."

last night i saw MGMT @ the greek theatre. THEY WERE AMAZING. best i have seen them yet! they are playing again about an hour away on Sunday and i am considering going to see them again...

mgmt footage coming next... xxxxxx

thoughts

well i made it through 2 weeks at AADA and i still love it! the teachers really challenge you and force you to go outside of your comfort zone... it is awesome.(above) i went to santa monica with luke and spent the day there. then we wandered down to the beach and i just wrote and wrote and wrote. i felt so much better after, because i had all these thoughts in my head from school and it was like i had to get it down on paper to be able to think again.however, on the downside some asshole jacked my phone at the pier!!! REALLY?

"The world always seems brighter when you’ve just made something that wasn’t there before."

Neil Gaiman

****"The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people do not just happen."- unknown. love this. ****

"I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it’s the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It’s probably the most important thing in a person."- Audrey Hepburn

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face; You must do the thing you think you cannot do."- Eleanor Roosevelt

"You don’t love a girl because she’s beautiful, she’s beautiful because you love her."-Unknown

"If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal, not to people or things."- Albert Einstein

"Be real, because a mask only fools people on the outside. Pretending to be someone you’re not takes a toll on the real you, and the real you is more important than anyone else."-Alex Gaskarth

"Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe."- Gail Devers