letting go is having the courage to accept change.

gotta love pinterest...

"say something, i'm giving up on you...

i'm sorry that i couldn't get to you."



i would never give up on you babe.
this is for my best friend. i love you.

 "anywhere, i would have followed you."

be strong, be brave, be better. i am here for you always and forever. just say something. xxxxxo

i write only because there is a voice within me that will not be still.

sometimes we have to start all over, and sometimes that's okay. i try to believe everything will work out, i hope you do as well. x0.

this.

quote of the day

I think at some point, your heart stops accepting pain. And then you become numb.

Which is by far worse, because feeling nothing at all is worse than a million heart breaks. When all you want to do is cry & you literally can’t for the life of you… that is the most terrifying place to be in.

But what we can turn to, what we MUST turn to is HOPE. Hope will get you through the most challenging times. And sometimes you think the worst ever that could happen to you, did. So you’re in the clear. And then you wake up to a real life nightmare. And you realize, things can always be worse.

YET. They ALWAYS get better.

I have been at odds with struggles for as long as I can remember, to a point I was miserably fine with self-pity. It was my way through. Isolate. Hide. Runaway.

And what feels like the longest process/recovery ever back to the slightest bit of normalcy…

(I realized)

that it is okay to hurt.

It is okay to feel pain.

The life of the party may be dying inside.

The person you judge most harshly will always be yourself.

You must face troubles with grace.

‘great comforters are not born, they are made’

it is okay to not be okay.

it is okay to not know what is next.

It is okay to fear your dreams. 

It is okay to love.

Everything, somehow will be OKAY. 

xx0.

every dreamer knows it's entirely possible to be homesick for a place you've never been

silver linings playbook

“You have to do everything you can. You have to work your hardest & if you do, if you stay positive you have a shot at a silver lining.”

“The world will break your heart 10 ways to Sunday that’s guaranteed. & I can’t begin to explain that or the craziness inside myself and everybody else, but guess what? Sunday's my favorite day again. I think of everything everyone did for me & I feel like a very lucky guy.”

“The only way to beat my crazy was by doing something even crazier. Thank you. I love you. I knew it from the moment I saw you. I’m sorry it took me so long to catch up.”

“You may not have experienced the shit that I did, but you loved hearing about it, didn’t you? You are afraid to be alive, you’re afraid to live. You’re a hypocrite. You’re a conformist. You’re a liar. I opened up to you, and you judged me. You’re an asshole.”

I'm so happy Jennifer Lawrence won the actor @ the sag awards & her acceptance speech was flawless...



but i do not understand how bradley cooper didn't as well. in my opinion, he nailed it. spot on. if you haven't seen it yet, i really loved it. & i love even more that someone was brave enough to write a script that is so close to home, so heartfelt. & as jennifer lawrence said-- "you made a movie for your son so he wouldn't feel alone & so he could feel understood & i think i can speak on behalf of most of us that you have helped more than your son."

& though she be but little, she is fierce.

words are powerful. some inspiration via pinterest.

for the dreamers...

Hi all, or anyone who may still read my blog.i am deeply sorry that i have been away for so long, & even more so that i promised to blog again & did not follow through. but life happens.

& as life would have it, mine has been a bit... well unhinged. this past year has been the hardest/most painful of them all, and if you did once upon a time follow my blog you may know i battled an eating disorder for about 8 years, yet the worst hadn't happened. so i guess my falling out would have to do with a subject thats still a bit too soon for me to open up about. questions about EDs? i got you. because i won that battle & i know how impossible those odds are. so sincerely, i want to & will be there for ANYONE who is struggling along the lines of ed's, depression, what have you... i have only wanted to inspire people who are like me & who feel lost/have felt lost/ don't quite know where to go from here...

so i guess i am posting this to say i am back. & i am always, ALWAYS here for those who need someone to talk to. anonymous or not. thats the beauty of letting it all go, i held on to secrets for so long & this blog helped me to share & not feel so crazy. so if you feel crazy, you are NOT. you are beautiful. being weird is brilliant. being different is perfection. being an individual is what sets you apart. so be different, be weird. because the most beautiful people are. xxx

-samantha america

touch of color

“While we have the gift of life, it seems to me that only tragedy is to allow part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our creativity, or our glorious uniqueness.” ― Gilda Radner. 

"You have to be willing to get happy about nothing." - Andy Warhol

"If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there."- Lewis Carroll

"We must take charge of our own destinies, design a life of substance and truly begin to live our dreams." -  Les Brown 

"It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere." - Agnes Repplier

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams, live the life you have imagined." - Henry David Thorea

 "If we did all the things we are capable of, we would literally astound ourselves." - Thomas Edison

"We can change our lives. We can do, have, and be exactly what we wish." - Tony Robbins

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live without fear. love always. dream forever. xo

when in doubt, keep it simple