silver linings playbook

“You have to do everything you can. You have to work your hardest & if you do, if you stay positive you have a shot at a silver lining.”

“The world will break your heart 10 ways to Sunday that’s guaranteed. & I can’t begin to explain that or the craziness inside myself and everybody else, but guess what? Sunday's my favorite day again. I think of everything everyone did for me & I feel like a very lucky guy.”

“The only way to beat my crazy was by doing something even crazier. Thank you. I love you. I knew it from the moment I saw you. I’m sorry it took me so long to catch up.”

“You may not have experienced the shit that I did, but you loved hearing about it, didn’t you? You are afraid to be alive, you’re afraid to live. You’re a hypocrite. You’re a conformist. You’re a liar. I opened up to you, and you judged me. You’re an asshole.”

I'm so happy Jennifer Lawrence won the actor @ the sag awards & her acceptance speech was flawless...



but i do not understand how bradley cooper didn't as well. in my opinion, he nailed it. spot on. if you haven't seen it yet, i really loved it. & i love even more that someone was brave enough to write a script that is so close to home, so heartfelt. & as jennifer lawrence said-- "you made a movie for your son so he wouldn't feel alone & so he could feel understood & i think i can speak on behalf of most of us that you have helped more than your son."

holy hangover.

i am dying to see the hangover 2. it has already broken box office records by making 86.5 million dollars in the last 3 days!! that's it, i'm seeing it tomorrow. need some good laughter. 

andrew garfield

Social Network's Andrew Garfield. My Zac Efron replacement currently. so yummy.

skins

Skins is my latest OBSESSiON. i just finished the 4th season. (out of 4) It's a british teen drama that is brutally honest. it is not fantasy like THE OC or Gossip Girl, which i do love those shows-- but SKiNS is raw. it cuts deep and nothing is censored. its adolescent life revolved around drugs, sex, alcohol, and fucked up life situations.

 raving scenes are guaranteed....

 Cassie & Sid are from the first generation. they were my favorite characters.

 & Effy and Freddie are from the second generation. they are my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE TV ROMANCE. i have a girl crush on effy and a huge crush on freddie.

 Panda & Effy.

 what i am mostly looking forward to is Skins the movie. if you watch up to the 4th season, it's a total cliff hanger and apparently they are in the process of making a movie to follow up the season and to answer unsolved question (BECAUSE ITS JUST THAT GOOD)

 hotties from both series. you will fall in love.

 & i am veryyyy iffy about this>> the US skins premieres Jan. 17th on MTV. i really hate this so far, because they took the first season and are re-doing it for American television with the same plot and everything. it seems like total bullshit. i think i would be more okay with it if they just started skins US all new storylines, new characters, and such. the original cast is impossible to replace. but i suppose i'll watch it & find out :/

 the 3rd generation of skins UK premieres January 27th, which will be all new characters again and i am bittersweet about it because i adore the old cast, but thats why i am glad they are making a movie...

it's not a maybe thing

i got miserably lonely today, as i do quite often living alone in Los Angeles. but then i remembered that i am exactly where i need to be. that even though things aren't perfect right now, they will be worth it one day.

i cannot imagine being anywhere else, doing anything else. i'm so use to fucking things up that i sometimes tell myself i'm going to fail before seeing things through.

i need to stop that. not this time. because this time i am where i need to be. i will not ruin this opportunity. i'm just trying to be a better person and let go of my past.

this whole thing i'm doing- well trying to do- it's not about living in Hollywood, it's not about celeb sightings, it's not about nightlife and clubs, it's not about fame or glamour.

it's about my passion for acting. that's all it's ever been. so i'm kind of over everything else right now. i just need to focus on being the best person i can be so i can portray characters honestly.

i need to entertain. i need to make people laugh, because that, well that's everything.

"I always wanted to do comedy and anybody that wants to do comedy has to have some need to please people or make people laugh."- Emma Stone

"I have never wanted to do anything but this [acting]. One day i just had this really strong urge to go and do it... I knew it made me happy. That's all."- Emma Stone ♥

young hearts

why hello darling. miss me? yeah didn't think so.

well reason being for my lack of writing has been school-- i eat sleep sit in traffic & go to school.

recently @ my acting school: i am working on a kissing scene from Picnic, working on the song "I don't know how to love him" & learning the Charleston in movement!

it's been really fun and busy... the other 2 classes (Alexander Technique & Voice and Speech) are more paper work and self work

i've been doing well in school, except the fact that i keep getting in trouble ha-- but for making people laugh, i don't know. its really stupid.

"Every artist was first an amateur."

Ralph Waldo Emerson

other than aada, i am still counting down the days til i move to west hollywood.
& i'm not going to lie, i have felt some of my insecurities creep back in recently. it's hard to live in LA and not to compare yourselves to others-- especially when you're at an acting school.
i need to stop. breathe. and re-focus on myself and tell myself that i am good enough. that i don't need to look or act like any other girls at AADA, because no one can be me, so i need to remember the beauty in THAT.
easier said than done. but also it just gets old meeting new people... wait that sounded wrong. i love meeting new people. but it's about time i have a solid few girlfriends and i honestly don't have that here.
i get along better with the guys in my class, but thats also different because i still need my girly time... AND OF COURSE, i want to meet guys that i am actually interested in and don't just want to sit and goof off together in class with :)
but i will just let time take it's course. because there comes a point where i need to give myself a break, because what? i moved here in July and started up with a whole new class in September.. i'm just impatient. i want results now! just like i want to be going on my own tv show.... cricket. cricket. too much? ha alright, got it.

but seriously, to anyone who reads this remember that you are beautiful and no one else in the world is you. so do what you will with that. xo. dream big

let's all just live

Tonight has turned into one of those nights where I got half of the things I need to do because all I want to do is write and go into my own la la land.

Which is half way productive because now it's an actual assignment for school. But now that I am in writing mode (stuff I won't post), it gets me into random tangents.I want to keep the excitement and fun in my life that comes along with living in this city. I'm too young to get caught up in the fakeness or to be worn down by this town. Because California is beautiful. So I am on a mission to see all the beautiful places that I see in movies, and not just the "Hollywood" stuff.""I like being on my own. Relationships are messy and people get hurt. Who needs it? We're Young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world, we might aswell have fun while we can and save the serious stuff for later." - 500 days of Summer

I enjoy time alone because this is when I do all my creative projects. But the thing is, I love people. I really love meeting people. I love my new class and I have only known them a day. I love being put in new classroom environments and making people laugh by accident.

Basically, I just want a good balance in my life. Because if I let all these assignments and responsibilities that come along with the academy get to me, I will go crazy and get anxious.

I think it is important to throw in fun in between. I get reminded of other non-acting oriented goals when I am immersed in random situations.

For example, (okay yes this was in an acting class, but bear with me) we did this improve drill that the teacher had people who spoke other languages get up with someone who only spoke a different language, so it was someone speaking in Spanish and one in French and they were both using their voices to try to convey what they wanted, but the people did not understand eachother...

It's hard to explain, but it was so interesting to watch how they went about and struggled through their miscommunication... so even though, I got out of the exercise what the teacher wanted us to get from an actor's perspective...

It also reminded me how much I loved French! haha, so yes that it where this long story took me. I want more french in my life, just like I want more laughter after I had so much fun with my sister, and I want more adventure.