"... I forgot you are suffering."

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i write only because there is a voice within me that will not be still.

sometimes we have to start all over, and sometimes that's okay. i try to believe everything will work out, i hope you do as well. x0.

this.

beautiful people do not just happen.

"the most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known, suffering, known STRUGGLE, known LOSS, and have found their way out of the depths. these persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. beautiful people do not just happen." -Elisabeth Ross

i know i've posted the first quote before. it's just too perfect.

I think at some point, your heart stops accepting pain. And then you become numb.

Which is by far worse, because feeling nothing at all is worse than a million heart breaks. When all you want to do is cry & you literally can’t for the life of you… that is the most terrifying place to be in.

But what we can turn to, what we MUST turn to is HOPE. Hope will get you through the most challenging times. And sometimes you think the worst ever that could happen to you, did. So you’re in the clear. And then you wake up to a real life nightmare. And you realize, things can always be worse.

YET. They ALWAYS get better.

I have been at odds with struggles for as long as I can remember, to a point I was miserably fine with self-pity. It was my way through. Isolate. Hide. Runaway.

And what feels like the longest process/recovery ever back to the slightest bit of normalcy…

(I realized)

that it is okay to hurt.

It is okay to feel pain.

The life of the party may be dying inside.

The person you judge most harshly will always be yourself.

You must face troubles with grace.

‘great comforters are not born, they are made’

it is okay to not be okay.

it is okay to not know what is next.

It is okay to fear your dreams. 

It is okay to love.

Everything, somehow will be OKAY. 

xx0.

for the dreamers...

Hi all, or anyone who may still read my blog.i am deeply sorry that i have been away for so long, & even more so that i promised to blog again & did not follow through. but life happens.

& as life would have it, mine has been a bit... well unhinged. this past year has been the hardest/most painful of them all, and if you did once upon a time follow my blog you may know i battled an eating disorder for about 8 years, yet the worst hadn't happened. so i guess my falling out would have to do with a subject thats still a bit too soon for me to open up about. questions about EDs? i got you. because i won that battle & i know how impossible those odds are. so sincerely, i want to & will be there for ANYONE who is struggling along the lines of ed's, depression, what have you... i have only wanted to inspire people who are like me & who feel lost/have felt lost/ don't quite know where to go from here...

so i guess i am posting this to say i am back. & i am always, ALWAYS here for those who need someone to talk to. anonymous or not. thats the beauty of letting it all go, i held on to secrets for so long & this blog helped me to share & not feel so crazy. so if you feel crazy, you are NOT. you are beautiful. being weird is brilliant. being different is perfection. being an individual is what sets you apart. so be different, be weird. because the most beautiful people are. xxx

-samantha america

be patient wild eyes

 "The person born with a talent they are meant to use will find their greatest happiness in using it." - Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

 "Don't wish it were easier, wish you were better." - Jim Rohn

"There is never a better measure of what a person is than what he does when he's absolutely free to choose." - William M. Bulger

"Many of life's failures are people who did not realise how close they were to success when they gave up." - Thomas Edison

"We must be willing to let go of the life we have planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us." -E. M. Forster

run>>run>>run>>run... i'm gonna stay right here. watch you disappear

words are powerful. raise the awareness. spread the love. no more shame.

because it's true

"How often in life we complete a task that was beyond the capability of the person we were when we started it." - Robert Brault 

this quote hit home for me & therefore needed to be the only quote on this post. i feel as if this is true to my life right now, and how amazing it feels to take on my dreams instead of store them away.