i write only because there is a voice within me that will not be still.

sometimes we have to start all over, and sometimes that's okay. i try to believe everything will work out, i hope you do as well. x0.

touch of color

“While we have the gift of life, it seems to me that only tragedy is to allow part of us to die - whether it is our spirit, our creativity, or our glorious uniqueness.” ― Gilda Radner. 

"You have to be willing to get happy about nothing." - Andy Warhol

"If you don't know where you are going, any road will get you there."- Lewis Carroll

"We must take charge of our own destinies, design a life of substance and truly begin to live our dreams." -  Les Brown 

"It is not easy to find happiness in ourselves, and it is not possible to find it elsewhere." - Agnes Repplier

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams, live the life you have imagined." - Henry David Thorea

 "If we did all the things we are capable of, we would literally astound ourselves." - Thomas Edison

"We can change our lives. We can do, have, and be exactly what we wish." - Tony Robbins

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live without fear. love always. dream forever. xo

i'll see you in my dreams

dream house

what a lovely dream friendly house this would be.

leighton meester

Leighten Meester, oh i adore this girl from Marco Island, Florida...
so i know i'm a little late but i just got caught up on the end of the last season of Gossip Girl since the new seaons starts mid sept. but watching reminded me how much i love Leighton Meester. i think she is really talented... you truly believe her as this drama queen that rules all of Manhattan, aka Blair. but she is so different in real life. i think she has a lot of versatility & i hope her career continues to do well.
oh & i also admire how she has taken a stab at the music business as well, because she loves singing as well as acting... sounds familiar :)
"I think the biggest thing to know is things aren't as bad as they seem. Your boyfriend seems like the last one you'll ever have and the love of your life, your friends and their drama seems so important - but it's not."
"I went through so many phases in high school that I can't say exactly what my style was. A combination of just rolling out of bed and going to class and kind of defying my femininity by wearing sweatshirts with holes in them, never wearing heels or skirts. Also, all black almost all the time."
"I don't feel guilty at all if I'm just lying around, one of my best guilty pleasures is doing absolutely nothing."
(on the acting business): "[It's] fierce and discouraging. But I think you can grow out of that, especially if you realize the only way you find success is: Figure out what works for you and what doesn't."
(on waiting in her trailer to shoot): "Like they say: The acting is for free. I get paid to wait."

... wait, i am obsessed with this quote, because it is so true!!! i have never seen someone say this--- with the little experience i have, the waiting is already my BIGGEST battle. even in class, you will go for a week and sometimes only get to do your scene like once. the acting really is what makes everything worth it. it can be such a rush!!! ahhhhhh.

marilyn monroe.

"I used to think as I looked out on the Hollywood night — there must be thousands of girls sitting alone like me, dreaming of becoming a movie star. But I'm not going to worry about them. I'm dreaming the hardest."

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

"I am good, but not an angel. I do sin, but I am not the devil. I am just a small girl in a big world trying to find someone to love."

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."

"When it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them."

"We should all start to live before we get too old. Fear is stupid. So are regrets."

"It's often just enough to be with someone. I don't need to touch them. Not even talk. A feeling passes between you both. You're not alone."

"Sex is part of nature. I go along with nature."

road to HOLLYWOOD.

I left for Los Angeles on Monday. My madre & i have been on the road for 2 days!! Before i left, i was running around sorting through my stuff like a mad woman... fingers crossed i didnt forget anything!
after i kissed nashville goodbye, we hit the road and drove through memphis, then right into Arkansas. I started the drive and prob drove 9 of the 14 hours the first day. My mom wanted to break it down into a 3 day venture, but i begged her to cancel the hotel reservations that she made in boomfuck nowheres & told her i was not going to stop the car & that we were totes making it in 2 days :)
after Arkansas, we entered the boring ole state of Oklahoma. it was actually kind of pretty, i took a picture of Lake Eufala? or something like that... haha
my dream catcher kept us safe and kept away speeding tickets! so originally we were suppose to stop in Oklahoma City, but with my extra push we made it to Texas. We spent the night in the smelly town of Amarillo. really, it smelled like cattle fields. yuckkk.
after breakfast we hit the road again, and i let my maud take the wheel first because i was still tireddddd. she drove a large portion of the day, but we switched after a late lunch in Albuquerque, New Mexico. We never ended up switching back. so today I drove about 10 hours straight!
as you can imagine, we were starting to get sick of eachother today. she hates my music & i hate her obsession with the fucking gps thing! like put it down! or take a nap. love you mom :) but really she can't sleep in cars, so she just nags at me! still love you maud..... BUT i am so use to literally blasting my music so i can sing it and not have to listen to myself. however, my mother turns it down every 5 minutes, and i turn it back up on the volume on my wheel. haha its a never ending battle.

you can call me speedy gonzalas if you'd like. because my average speed was prob 105 today. yiiiikes. i was a BIT anxious. after New Mehhhico, we entered my dear old town of college memories-- in Arizona. well, we did not pass through Tucson because we were on the 40 west the ENTIRE TIME. but it was still strange being back in zona.

speeding through arizona was a pretty boring route. my mom was watching a movie and my ipod was dead. so i was trying to hook up pandora from my phone to my itrip, but of course the service was terrible so the stations would come in and out.

& FiNALLY WE ARE NOW iN CALiFORNiA. not yet LA, but about an hour away. we just checked into a hotel around 2 am so we are going to make it to our final destination tomorrow! I plan on running some errands and moving into my studio apartment asap! I cannot wait to decorate it!! yippeee!! more pics & stuff coming very very soon! such an exciting time. >>> remember, NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS. xxxxxxx