just breathe.

"I'm lucky to breathe, I'm lucky to feel,

I'm glad to wake up, I'm glad to be here"

-Jimi Hendrix

"You seem to believe you

Belong to somebody else

When you leave me alone in this world

You know that I'm in hell

When you know what it's like

To be lonely and by yourself"

-La Roux

"Forever is a long long time

When you lost your way

Trying to follow your ideals"

-Phoenix

"You contradict everything, and I don't care

Your logic is twisted, and I don't care

I'll pretend to be happy, and I don't care"

-Deadmau5

"Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."- Grey's Anatomy

Okay, I know... these are all depressing quotes. This was what I call post-nyfa depression. Everything made sense for a split second & then it all fell apart again. I was starting to learn I was not happy in college, but not taking action to change it... yet. Just kept waking up & living the same day on repeat. No life in it... very blah.. very dark... very NOT okay. At least I found a way to express my self to MYSELF... simply & kind heartedly, for example: "FUCK OFF" .... try it, you'll feel better, i promise.

::LiVE FREE::

"There is one rule to be learned. Life is outside you.

If it is outside you, you must go towards it." - Stella Adler

The most amazing thing about these people is how we all came together. Everything could have been so different, if we all just stayed to ourselves outside of class. But we always wanted to be together, we always wanted to experience life. There were people from America, England, Egypt, Russia, Spain, Brazil, Uganda, Lebanon... and many others! It truly made me realize how SMALL my life is. The world is so huge and I want to know more than just what's around me. I am never in the same place in the U.S. anyways so lets see where I can stretch the boundaries even more. oh yeeeee.

"Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people." ~ Eleanor Roosevelt

"Not all who wander are lost."-Tolkien

"In dreams, we enter a world that's entirely our own." ~Steven Kloves

After NYFA wrapped up, I headed back to Arizona for school. These goodbyes were unreal. I mean we were all strangers 6 weeks prior and I felt as if I was leaving life long friends. The last thing I had on my mind was school, but life happens and it was where my commitments were. It was a little rough, because all I wanted to do was be back in acting classes. I was missing my creative outlet, and so I had to keep reminding myself what I was capable of, while maintaining the college kid life=not my thing.

journal begins...

"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself."

-E.W. Wucox

"We are shaped and fashioned by what we love"

"if you're lucky enough to be different from everyone else....don't change to be the same"

"& This above all: to thine own self be true." ~ William Shakespeare

Last summer I spent a month in Europe & 6 weeks at an acting intensive in LA at The New York Film Academy (Universal Studios location). It was a life changing summer, where I truly aspired to become an actress one day & believe in the power of my dreams. I returned to college at the University of Arizona in the fall for my Sophomore year. However, the inspiration and passion I had discovered could not be lived as a college student. Recently I have decided to move to Los Angeles- FINALLY. In July, I will be a full time student at the American Academy of Dramatic Arts. & before I begin this new chapter in my life, I want to reflect on the past year through my personal journal. My journal started as something random to remember all these great moments. Somehow it ended up as an artistic personal reflection so I figured I would share (well not everything...) but a pretty good insight into the life of a girl with ambitions. It was a year full of many life lessons & how I got steered back on this path-- the pursuit of happiness & my dreams.