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May 21, 2010

LONDON NEW YEAR'S

"The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it." - W.M. Lewis


"The most wasted of all days is

one without laughter."

E.E. Cummings

"On your favorite weekend

Ending this love for gentlemen only

That’s where the fortunate only"

-Phoenix


The London trip started off as me and Andrew stepped off the plane to be embraced with bottles of champagne at 6 am. & to also learn that Tam and Richard had been there the same time the day BEFORE... with FANTASTIC 4 written on their tummys... just a slight time difference mix up. The agenda was pre planned thanks to tam and we went to so many wonderful plays & places like "winter wonderland" wonder my ass, i was FREEZING. All i could manage was to ask for more mulled wine.New Year's Eve was insane. We saw a modern adaption of Moliere's "The Misanthrope" starring... KEIRA KNIGHTLY. she is drop dead gorgeous and i loved seeing her work live. so incredibly different than in movies. after the play the four of us hit up some pubs and then eventually met up with a bunch of tams friends to go to a hotel over looking the London Eye to see the fireworks @ 12. At this point, central London was pure chaos. everyone running around like mad people trying to get to the clubs. which not to brag or anything-- but the club we went to on New Years had bowling alleys, karaoke, live music, hot tubs, and more randomness i cant remember. it was a pretty legit way to start off 2010. hollllaaaaaAnother night for the books, was when we went to an ice bar. LITERALLY, everything was ice- the tables, the seats, the shot glasses... & you have to wear these penguin outfits, its weird. okay no they just give you very large jackets but i did feel like a penguin. Moving on, we thawed off and then hit up the clubs where I had my first encounter pole dancing. me and tam were quite the naturals & Ke$ha was on full blast at my request. its weird being THE AMERICAN in england bc i think they are all the cool ones with the accents not me... OH yeahhh this night it snowed & we woke up to a real life winter wonderland in the morning.
"Don't stop. Make it rock--Dj blow my speakers up, tonight ima fight til i see the sunlight."- KE$HA

"It's kind of easy,

If you have a open mind.

This game is more than,

Spending money and fucking dimes.

It's all within your words,

Some shit that outlives time."

-kid cudi


Wow, I literally just remembered this-- we went to a french restaurant where you ate in the PITCH BLACK DARK. you really could not see a thing, kid you not. & the waiters were all blind. so they would line you up (in the light) with your group and have you put your hand on the person in front of you. then they guide you to your seats, which i almost fell trying to sit in. & then they serve you as if you are in any normal restaurant. BUT you cant see a fucking thing! so you go on trying to play it cool and chit chat with your friends, until someone (not me) spills the entire bottle of wine and then madness starts. okay i split it. the weirdest part was eating your food. me and tam both got vegetarian so i would make her try everything first. i freaked out and thought i had a live animal or something on my plate, when it was actually mango. hahaha i swear i will never take sight for granted again. this was very very challenging!!
THE BEST NIGHT=ROLLER DISCO DERBY! It was the last night and most perfect way to end the journey. We had gone shopping at the Covenant Garden & after we ate dinner we changed before leaving the restaurant. Causing scene number 1. everyone was staring us as we were drawing on our faces and walking out as if we looked normal. wait let me rephrase this, they were all staring at richard the huge guy wearing blue spandex! hahahaha omg richard i love you. anyways, scene number 2, 3, 4... doesnt end really.. came at the train station. those trains are tightly packed and I think we made our share of strangers feel very uncomfortable. my favorite part of all this was somehow Richard was forced to carry the bag of clothes and the bag broke haha so he had to carry it by the bottom, making him even more ridiculous than he already was.
"We're gonna fuel the fire, gonna stoke it up,
we're gonna sip this wine & pass the cup...
We're gonna show this town ho to kiss these stars"
- Kings of Leon

& those were JUST the highlights of this trip... it truly was such a special week with soooo many memories. I left a few days before Andrew to get back to school & they all came with me to the airport to have breakfast. Then after a hugfest they still stayed as i inched my way forward in the security line and we all waved goodbye about a million times. As I passed the check point and could no longer see the 4sum, i still heard richard's thrilling voice yelling "byeEEEE"

May 20, 2010

just breathe.

"I'm lucky to breathe, I'm lucky to feel,
I'm glad to wake up, I'm glad to be here"
-Jimi Hendrix

"You seem to believe you

Belong to somebody else

When you leave me alone in this world

You know that I'm in hell

When you know what it's like

To be lonely and by yourself"

-La Roux

"Forever is a long long time

When you lost your way

Trying to follow your ideals"

-Phoenix

"You contradict everything, and I don't care

Your logic is twisted, and I don't care

I'll pretend to be happy, and I don't care"

-Deadmau5

"Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than sleeping, and even the biggest failure, even the worst, beat the hell out of never trying."- Grey's Anatomy

Okay, I know... these are all depressing quotes. This was what I call post-nyfa depression. Everything made sense for a split second & then it all fell apart again. I was starting to learn I was not happy in college, but not taking action to change it... yet. Just kept waking up & living the same day on repeat. No life in it... very blah.. very dark... very NOT okay. At least I found a way to express my self to MYSELF... simply & kind heartedly, for example: "FUCK OFF" .... try it, you'll feel better, i promise.

PURSUE HOPE

“As we drive along this road called life, occasionally a gal will find herself a little lost. And when that happens, I guess she has to let go of the coulda, shoulda, woulda, buckle up and just keep going.” - Sex & the City

Thank you to these people above for making me feel again. I found my place.

"These are the times that try a girl's soul. We don't know where to turn, what to think. We lie in bed in the morning desperately searching for a reason to get up."- A Girl's Guide to Chaos
So I finally got my nose pierced last summer, which is this picture. I still love it. tattoo in the future?

"all the crazy shit i did tonight, those will be the best memories. i just wanna let it go tonight, that'll be the best therapy for me" - Kid Cudi

"Remember that LOVE starts with a passion to pursue fighting hate." -Rebelution

Last of summer 2009... running away from a crazy lady. Hey Tam, is that your ice cream bowl? Don't answer that... Are those knives stuck in your door? Don't answer that either.

"A true friend sees the pain in your eyes while others only see the smile"

May 19, 2010

::LiVE FREE::

"There is one rule to be learned. Life is outside you.

If it is outside you, you must go towards it." - Stella Adler

The most amazing thing about these people is how we all came together. Everything could have been so different, if we all just stayed to ourselves outside of class. But we always wanted to be together, we always wanted to experience life. There were people from America, England, Egypt, Russia, Spain, Brazil, Uganda, Lebanon... and many others! It truly made me realize how SMALL my life is. The world is so huge and I want to know more than just what's around me. I am never in the same place in the U.S. anyways so lets see where I can stretch the boundaries even more. oh yeeeee.

"Not all who wander are lost."-Tolkien

"In dreams, we enter a world that's entirely our own." ~Steven Kloves
After NYFA wrapped up, I headed back to Arizona for school. These goodbyes were unreal. I mean we were all strangers 6 weeks prior and I felt as if I was leaving life long friends. The last thing I had on my mind was school, but life happens and it was where my commitments were. It was a little rough, because all I wanted to do was be back in acting classes. I was missing my creative outlet, and so I had to keep reminding myself what I was capable of, while maintaining the college kid life=not my thing.

''Always do what you are afraid to do.''

"First they ignore you, then they ridicule you, then they fight you, then you win." -Gandhi

Shout out to SAMTAM & the Fantastic Four. Samantha, Tamara, Andrew, & Richard= my soul mates= STAR. Yall are truly amazing people and I am so lucky to have found such special friendships. NEVER stop chasing your dreams. Because, I believe in you guys & OBVIOUSLY thats all that matters... okay, well whatever. I won't even start on the memories obtained at Oakwood because it would get out of hand, very fast.


"Nothing great in this World has been accomplished without Passion"


"Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about."

"If you can imagine it, you can achieve it; if you can dream it, you can become it.” ~ William Arthur
"Every single thing you see on-screen came out of somebody's
creativity." ~ Jeffrey Katzenberg
NEW YORK FiLM ACADEMY::: SUMMER 2009.
This is where my whole life changed. I met the most amazing people from around the world,literally. & we all came together to study what we love, acting. I fell in love with the craft again and thought about my future. I am still great friends with these people, and I hope to see them back in the city of ANGELS this summer. I love you all from NYFA & you are in my thoughts.


"The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do." ~ Walter Bagehot