auditions

When I got back to school, I got back to work. I had decided I wanted a change. I was not where I wanted to be, so it was time to look at my options. I decided to audition at a few different schools. I looked at different universities & their acting programs. But I ultimately fell in love with AADA, the American Academy of Dramatic Arts. I was originally just looking there for a summer program & at the end of my interview i was asked if i wanted to be reviewed for the year as well. soo umm yes please!!

"Do one thing every day that scares you."

Eleanor Roosevelt

"Given a chance, I'm gonna be somebody

If for one dance, I'm gonna be somebody"

-Kings of Leon

"Time is running out and standing still."- The Bravery

"& maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope."- He's Just Not That Into You

The beginning of Spring was very busy and demanding outside of my actual school. I was working really hard at picking out monologues and preparing them for my auditions. I wanted desperately to find a different school that was right for me. It was also a hard time because I had to leave Arizona almost every weekend to go on my auditions and then come back and try to keep up. at the same time I was dealing with a long distance relationship that was starting to fall apart and having very little capability in saving it from where i was... stuck. Now all I had left was to wait. Everything was about waiting... waiting to hear back from schools, waiting for a phone call, a text, waiting waiting WAITING>>> patience is not my specialty.

LONDON NEW YEAR'S

"The tragedy of life is not that it ends so soon, but that we wait so long to begin it." - W.M. Lewis

"The most wasted of all days is

one without laughter."

E.E. Cummings

"On your favorite weekend

Ending this love for gentlemen only

That’s where the fortunate only"

-Phoenix

The London trip started off as me and Andrew stepped off the plane to be embraced with bottles of champagne at 6 am. & to also learn that Tam and Richard had been there the same time the day BEFORE... with FANTASTIC 4 written on their tummys... just a slight time difference mix up. The agenda was pre planned thanks to tam and we went to so many wonderful plays & places like "winter wonderland" wonder my ass, i was FREEZING. All i could manage was to ask for more mulled wine.New Year's Eve was insane. We saw a modern adaption of Moliere's "The Misanthrope" starring... KEIRA KNIGHTLY. she is drop dead gorgeous and i loved seeing her work live. so incredibly different than in movies. after the play the four of us hit up some pubs and then eventually met up with a bunch of tams friends to go to a hotel over looking the London Eye to see the fireworks @ 12. At this point, central London was pure chaos. everyone running around like mad people trying to get to the clubs. which not to brag or anything-- but the club we went to on New Years had bowling alleys, karaoke, live music, hot tubs, and more randomness i cant remember. it was a pretty legit way to start off 2010. hollllaaaaaAnother night for the books, was when we went to an ice bar. LITERALLY, everything was ice- the tables, the seats, the shot glasses... & you have to wear these penguin outfits, its weird. okay no they just give you very large jackets but i did feel like a penguin. Moving on, we thawed off and then hit up the clubs where I had my first encounter pole dancing. me and tam were quite the naturals & Ke$ha was on full blast at my request. its weird being THE AMERICAN in england bc i think they are all the cool ones with the accents not me... OH yeahhh this night it snowed & we woke up to a real life winter wonderland in the morning.

"Don't stop. Make it rock--Dj blow my speakers up, tonight ima fight til i see the sunlight."- KE$HA

"It's kind of easy,

If you have a open mind.

This game is more than,

Spending money and fucking dimes.

It's all within your words,

Some shit that outlives time."

-kid cudi

Wow, I literally just remembered this-- we went to a french restaurant where you ate in the PITCH BLACK DARK. you really could not see a thing, kid you not. & the waiters were all blind. so they would line you up (in the light) with your group and have you put your hand on the person in front of you. then they guide you to your seats, which i almost fell trying to sit in. & then they serve you as if you are in any normal restaurant. BUT you cant see a fucking thing! so you go on trying to play it cool and chit chat with your friends, until someone (not me) spills the entire bottle of wine and then madness starts. okay i split it. the weirdest part was eating your food. me and tam both got vegetarian so i would make her try everything first. i freaked out and thought i had a live animal or something on my plate, when it was actually mango. hahaha i swear i will never take sight for granted again. this was very very challenging!!

THE BEST NIGHT=ROLLER DISCO DERBY! It was the last night and most perfect way to end the journey. We had gone shopping at the Covenant Garden & after we ate dinner we changed before leaving the restaurant. Causing scene number 1. everyone was staring us as we were drawing on our faces and walking out as if we looked normal. wait let me rephrase this, they were all staring at richard the huge guy wearing blue spandex! hahahaha omg richard i love you. anyways, scene number 2, 3, 4... doesnt end really.. came at the train station. those trains are tightly packed and I think we made our share of strangers feel very uncomfortable. my favorite part of all this was somehow Richard was forced to carry the bag of clothes and the bag broke haha so he had to carry it by the bottom, making him even more ridiculous than he already was.

"We're gonna fuel the fire, gonna stoke it up,

we're gonna sip this wine & pass the cup...

We're gonna show this town ho to kiss these stars"

- Kings of Leon

& those were JUST the highlights of this trip... it truly was such a special week with soooo many memories. I left a few days before Andrew to get back to school & they all came with me to the airport to have breakfast. Then after a hugfest they still stayed as i inched my way forward in the security line and we all waved goodbye about a million times. As I passed the check point and could no longer see the 4sum, i still heard richard's thrilling voice yelling "byeEEEE"

NEWPORT>> 4th.

I thought I would just throw in some 4th of July pictures, because it was quite the eventful place. Sam Meis I love you if you happen to stumble upon this. Newport is definitely the place to be for this holiday... too much fun.

maddness in newport for the 4th of July. Fun times with the Zona crowd before heading to Elle Ay.

Eurotrip '09

Oh haay, I'm Robert Pattinson and I am Beautiful & from England. anyways..

NOTTiNG HiLL>>> Well, this is another fave. It is just so trendy. I found some awesome stuff at the flea markets on Portabello Road. The little colorful attaching houses are... well, lets just say I want one. This day reminded me of the movie Notting Hill, which then reminded me of this quote: "I'm just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her." awww, I WANT THAT.::LONDON:: Only my FAVORITE CITY IN THE WORLD!! Goodness, I love this place. It is one of those places that I push my fashion, because I can. I get inspired by street chic Londoner gals. I would not be opposed to living there and finding my future husband/ David Beckham replica. Then we could run off to LA with our beautiful British children... What? I can dream.

::PARiS:: Oh so cliche, but such a romantic city. Well not much romance for me, but it was cool to finally see it. I have been taking French for years and I WILL be fluent in French... one day. Proudest moment: telling a joke to the cab driver & he actually understood it & even more surprisingly, laughed out loud. Sarah and I were a big fan of the nutella crepes. I mean, who wouldn't be. Paris, I will be back someday! ::MARBELLA, SPAiN:: We stayed at a beautiful resort in Marbella. I found it so interesting to be laying by the pool with such a diverse crowd. Seriously, to your left there would be a Scottish family with their young abundance of gingers running around. To your right, possibly a Latino babe being creeped on by a fat man in a speedo. And then my favorite, the Brits & their accents that I would secretly be trying to imitate. Regardless, it was very fun to people watch. Sarah and I had many fun nights out on the Port, where I fell in love with, big shocker here: a British fellow. I pulled a few shenanigans at this location that got me on strict watch from the parents the rest of the vacation-- but it was so worth it. :)

I went to Europe last June & it was amazing!! I absolutely love experiencing new cultures. I was with my parents and a good friend, Sarah. We explored through Marbella, Spain, London, & Paris. I met a heartthrob Rob Pattinson look-a-like. It was pretty much love at first sight (for a week). London was my favorite city because of the fashion!