spring fever

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wildfox spring 2011> WHiTE LABEL.

kiss kiss. BANG BANG.

"No wonder I'm scared to look in your eyes.

You've turned me away, so many times

You can take it away at any given moment

It's hard to believe, while you're in this disguise."- La Roux

"i believe in believing the things that we don't see." -passion pit

"The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams."- Eleanor Roosevelt

"For a woman that's fallen over head and ears

And still so warm, but I'm lonely too,

Suddenly she is still and says, "I hope that things will be better here."

-Ra Ra Riot

"The quality of your life is the quality of your relationships."- Anthony Robbins

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away." -Grey's Anatomy

"So go I know you would not stay. It wasn't true, but anyway- How am I supposed to pretend I never want to see you again?" -Vampire Weekend

"I believe that as soon as people want peace in the world they can have it.

The only trouble is they are not aware they can get it."- John Lennon

::WE THE FREE::

"In the dark of the night I can hear you calling my name

With the hardest of hearts, I still feel full of pain

So I drink and I smoke and I ask you if your ever around

even though it was me who drove us right into the ground."- KOL

These are entries from end of spring semester. Theta did Spring Fling with Pike & it was a really fun week. The pictures where i have crazy make up was from the date dash-- "I wish I was...." KE$HA. fratty times.

“Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed.

Maybe they just need to run free til they find someone

just as wild to run with them.”- Sex & the City

"All my days end too slow

And I wonder where I've left to go

Anyway, there's no such thing as company.

I've discovered all I've got to do."

-Ra Ra Riot

"Have you ever heard of some shit so real. Beyong the heart, from the soul you can feel." -Kid Cudi

"I'll make it seem like I'm stronger but I'm quite the actor.

And now I'm so caught up and I can't escape this pattern."- passion.pit

SPRiNG LiNE UP

Before i move on to spring break, i need to take a minute & laugh at how PERFECTLY this picture above describes me on valentine's day. i thought i was going to have this super awesome valentines, as if i give a fuck. but i got excited & then it was like ohhhhh hay reality. hahaha this picture is perfection. thats all...
Since I had decided on where I was going next year, I was able to just relax over spring break. I was not in cabo with the rest of the u of a, because of all the money spent traveling to my auditions. But it was still a good break... my parents were in palm springs so i would go there for a few days at a time & then make trips into Newport & LA to visit people.

just breathe and take ahold of your fears*

"Wave your hands>> Make it rain.

For stars will rise again."- MGMT

I was stoked about aada and able to kick back for the first time all semester. The main thing on my mind was already the countdown to COACHELLA.

"Just know it was you all along that had a hold of my heart

But the demon in me was a best friend from the start

So the time we shared it was precious to me

All the while I was dreaming of revelry."- KOL

ambitions.

I found out I got accepted to AADA over spring break. it was probably the easiest yes ever. in my head i was already so out of arizona so hearing it could be real was so relieving & AMAZING. i felt really proud of myself for working for something & accomplishing it by myself. I am not naive or anything, all i am doing is setting myself up to STILL be a student, but at an artistic school. i will wake up every day and WANT to go to class, which never happens. I never get sick of learning about this craft because it is so intriguing. acting is difficult people! to merely dig into your own personal feelings and your soul to expose the human emotion to others.... think about it. it can be trying. but it is wonderful. and i am more than ready to get back into acting classes bc i want to be great. i want to have composure & confidence & one day enter the world of film and television.

"All I wanna do is live a life that's certain. To find the love that I've been searching for." -Rebelution

"..go ahead and step outside and see what's shaking in the real world"- John Butler Trio

"i don't know but I'm ready to start cuz i know in my heart, I wanna do something that matters"

-lady antebellum

"keep on living, keep on dreaming, keep on breathing because one day the determination will show your time will come for the world to watch you glow" *

auditions

When I got back to school, I got back to work. I had decided I wanted a change. I was not where I wanted to be, so it was time to look at my options. I decided to audition at a few different schools. I looked at different universities & their acting programs. But I ultimately fell in love with AADA, the American Academy of Dramatic Arts. I was originally just looking there for a summer program & at the end of my interview i was asked if i wanted to be reviewed for the year as well. soo umm yes please!!

"Do one thing every day that scares you."

Eleanor Roosevelt

"Given a chance, I'm gonna be somebody

If for one dance, I'm gonna be somebody"

-Kings of Leon

"Time is running out and standing still."- The Bravery

"& maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope."- He's Just Not That Into You

The beginning of Spring was very busy and demanding outside of my actual school. I was working really hard at picking out monologues and preparing them for my auditions. I wanted desperately to find a different school that was right for me. It was also a hard time because I had to leave Arizona almost every weekend to go on my auditions and then come back and try to keep up. at the same time I was dealing with a long distance relationship that was starting to fall apart and having very little capability in saving it from where i was... stuck. Now all I had left was to wait. Everything was about waiting... waiting to hear back from schools, waiting for a phone call, a text, waiting waiting WAITING>>> patience is not my specialty.