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Dec 29, 2010

reason for everything.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be?"

 “I don’t think honesty is ever something you should regret. I figure if I’m going to cover things up and try to hide the way I feel and try to be perfect all the time, people are going to see through that.”
"I am so clever that sometimes I don't understand a single word of what I am saying." - Oscar Wilde
"Crying doesn't indicate that you're weak. Since birth, it has been a sign that you're alive."

Dec 27, 2010

christmas eve

whiskey kitchen.

 we meet Chord Overstreet from GLEE :)
 & then he bought me a shot. #proudmoment

12th & porter

i've been back in nashville and having a blast. i have seen so many old friends that i adore and we have ben hitting up the nashville nightlife quite a bit.
12th & porter is a pretty rad venue where local bands usually perform and sometimes bigger names.

Dec 23, 2010

maybe a bit broken, but never shattered.

she writes & she writes until the pieces fall into place. the mistakes will never be erased, but she stopped avoiding reality. she accepted her flaws. her past. her regrets. her unspoken words and soon discovered the pain drifting away. all the hurt and tragedy she once knew was turning into magic.
maybe, she thought to herself, you really do have to hit rock bottom before you get back on your feet. this is who i am and i will not and can not feel ashamed... and although it may not be perfect, she found HOPE. she was willing to fight every single day for the endless days that her voice was taken away from her. she had been silenced for too long and this was a fight worth fighting.
the girl put down her pen, closed her journal & suddenly, in the blink of an eye, the world started making sense again.

Dec 15, 2010

the naked & famous.


I've been a Taylor Swift fan from her single "Tim McGraw" I listed to country music a lot more when I was a high school gal in Nashville. But I've steered more towards other genres, with the exception of Swift. She continues to inspire me, and i continue to support her music. she relates to her fans and she lets the whole world read/hear her most personal thoughts. I know I can speak for a large amount of girls out there who have more than a few taylor swift songs that have gotten them through hard times, or a good blast-in-the-car song on the way to school. 
As for me, some of my favorites that remind me of very specific times in my life include: Breathe, Forever & Always, The Way I Loved You, Our Song, You're Not Sorry, and Haunted.... just to name a few. i can probably relate to every single song.
Not only do i love her for her music, but i love her for her personality and outlook on life. she didn't get to where she is today by luck, she worked her ass of for it, which goes to prove anyone can have their dream.
she hasn't been swept away by the hollywood scene and she seems to be one of the most well put together celeb out there. and her motto fearless is to die for. she has become one of the voices of our generation and i see no end to her career any time soon. xxx
"To me, Fearless is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me,Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death."  Taylor Swift
"People haven't always been there for me but music always has." 
"If you're lucky enough to be different, never change" 
"Everybody has that point in their life where you hit a crossroads and you've had a bunch of bad days and there's different ways you can deal with it and the way I dealt with it was I just turned completely to music."  Taylor Swift

"I’m intimidated by the fear of being average." 

"Real life is a funny thing you know. 

In real life saying the right thing, at the right moment is beyond crucial. 
So crucial in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. 
But lately what I’ve began to fear more than that, is letting the moment pass with saying anything. 
I think you deserved to look back on your life without this chorus of resounding voices saying, I could of but it’s too late now. 
So there’s a time for silent, and there a time for waiting your turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say. 
You’ll know it. 
I don’t think you should wait. 
I think you should speak now." 

"Throughout all of the changes that have happened in my life, one of the priorities I've had is to never change the way I write songs and the reasons I write songs. I write songs to help me understand life a little more. I write songs to get past things that cause me pain. And I write songs because sometimes life makes more sense to me when it's being sung in a chorus, and when I can write it in a verse."  Taylor Swift
"And I remember that fight, 2:30 a.m.
As everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye
'Cause that's all I've ever known
Then you took me by surprise
You said I'll never leave you alone"
Taylor Swift

Dec 13, 2010

everything is beautiful & nothing hurt

so i'm sitting on my balcony with my laptop and my chai tea & it suddenly hits me--- so much about my life is different from where i stood a year ago. literally in every aspect, location. school. people. friends. work load. streets. highways. traffic. teachers. frustrations. nightlife. favorite songs. struggles. achievements. downfalls. strides. hair color... city lights. lifestyle. crushes. heartbreak. lust. dreams. every.single.thing. yet, i am still very much the same.
  i will have my same best friends my whole life, and my family will always be there for me and my personality is something i don't let anyone or anything take away from me. i have a love for life that i can't explain, but i struggle from day to day to live up to it. i think we generally do not give ourselves enough credit for the things we have done. i know i don't... i'm usually over thinking situations or analyzing every detail and kicking myself for what i "should have" or "could have" done. but at the end of the day, despite whatever goals or standards you have not yet reached, you (i) must remember to give myself some slack.
people change, change is the only consistent thing in life. and it is not always easy. but i think back to christmas eve last year, sitting at a nice restaurant and telling my dad my "new years resolutions" granted, new year's resolutions are very cliche and usually never happen. i remember being really driven and listing off all these goals and i was not going to let anyone stand in my way to get them done. so at any rate, whoever you are that is reading this by accident or by chance or because you genuinely like to read my blog; just remember to be proud of yourself and the things you have done. stop beating yourself up over the other stuff. because i certainly get it, i have been so hard on myself recently about what i have done WRONG so far.
but fuck it, i am at a school that literally fell into my hands by chance. i found the place i didn't know i was looking for. i have learned so much, improved so much, and challenged myself with things i never knew i was capable of doing. so yeah, i just get that things do happen for a reason. nobody is perfect, but no one will ever get to where they want to go without taking the initiative.
your dreams are closer than you could ever imagine and when life gets too hard to handle, if the pressure surpasses the passion, if you aren't happy with yourself... then i advise you to take a step back and look around at everything about you that is great.
and lastly to sum up another one of my spur of the moment rants... never take a day for granted, never think of a day as unimportant because those are the days where you may discover something extraordinary.