sometimes i wish someone would tell me that it was going to be okay, and that there is a reason behind all the madness. sometimes i get sick of being the only person who can inspire myself because everyone else keeps disappointing me.
sometimes i wish that someone was missing me as much as i'm missing them. sometimes i wonder why i feel so much about things that people don't think twice about.
sometimes i wish i could understand the purpose of pain. and even more so i wonder why i have been the victim of so much of it. sometimes i wonder why i have gone through so much and how i have been able to survive and still believe in the beauty in everything.
sometimes i wish i wasn't really the only person who could control my own life because i fear of how badly i might fuck it up. sometimes i just want to give up and be normal, but then i realize that has never, ever worked.and that i can be okay, and i can touch a few hearts in my life and wake people up to their lives. everyday i might fail, but i think it's better to look back and think "wow that fucking sucked but at least i made a bold choice." so i say, go out there and fail. go out there and look stupid, because anyone who cares is most likely jealous.