Anyways, my mind has been literally so unfocused all week. Well, right now going to class is priority, so I have some focus there-- but it seems like when class is out, my mind goes whack. Do I do homework? Do I go out? Do I try to go to dinner with that one person I met from that one person who knows my friend from Nashville? (I made that up, but ya know weird sitchs)
(acting tidbit, skip if you could care less)
I think I'm also a bit restless, because I am use to acting classes that are way more on your feet. Always working, doing improve, scene work, monologues, so on. And yes I do this at my school, but right now we have so much learning we have to go through before we get there, I almost feel like I'm being punished haha even though I know its important.
For example, we have to take a class that is all about unlearning fixed habits. Which would also be known as bad posture. And we are also learning the IPA so we can all speak in a standard American accent, which YOU THINK WOULD BE EASY BUT ITS NOT. ahhhh
I am so frustrated with this class because I speak so weird, I have like a mix from my parents Northern roots, my Southern roots, habits I picked up from my generation, west coast lingo, and what I call "Samantha habits" which for my voice would be things I do that I don't know where i picked it up, like frying my words (raspy-ish) and terrible articulation.
Okay, this is such a boring blog post, but I think it has helped me understand why I have been so strange-- I'm basically being taught how to reverse all these habits, and it is fucking hard!!
mehhh, I'm posting a quote post next so you'll have something fun to read. xo