So I started getting a little paranoid yesterday because I was looking back on older posts & was about ready to delete a bunch of them to save myself any humiliation if (insert name of judgmental person here) saw them. But then I just took a moment to reflect back on everything I had written, and I can say that I am not ashamed or embarrassed. I have no problem sharing my thoughts with whoever wants to hear, so needless to say, I did not delete anything. Because it is real.
I'm reading "Eat, Pray, Love" right now & she talks about her "inner voice" not in a religious way, but more as her writing voice. This reminded me of my type of writing because I do that, I literally write to myself and give myself advice. To my dismay, I don't always listen to myself. But in these situation I find myself saying some wise things. But the problem is for me, I will write, post, and go on with my life. I too often forget to continue these minutes of extreme passion. So, here are a few of my own personal quotes from older posts that I wanted to remind myself that I once said. And I want to share with you, because I think it has some value....
"You can always find lyrics for the words you can't find or are too scared to say out loud. No one says what they think anymore, so here [music] is a way to fake it. It mends you. It rebuilds you. It inspires you."
"Trust me, its better to feel too much than feel nothing at all. It's okay to hurt. it means your alive. Don't shut off the bad,
let it in so you can heal."
"I always seem to be reminded of my goals when people let me down. Not as if they became less important, but it is the most stable part of my life. People come in & out of your life. They can fool you even when you are as stubborn and hard headed as me. Thats why it's so important to have passion in things you love. LIVE WHAT YOU LOVE. It's the only love that won't change it's mind and walk away."
"Because sometimes all the hard times can turn into a new realm of creativity.... & once that happens, it's beautiful. You get back to things you have always wanted to do & pushed away for a while. Letting yourself hurt like hell, will bring you back to happier days. Even after those days where you physically hurt just thinking about something that's lost. & that's when you realize life is what you make it. Life is how you live it. You make your life work out & you'll find your happy ending one day."
"I think it's okay to want to make a difference. I think it's okay to express yourself in a world where people rarely do. I think it's okay to screw up too many times to count, but to learn from each mistake. I think it's okay to put yourself out there, even if you look stupid. I think it's okay to be a kid at heart... I think it's okay to truly NOT give a fuck what people think about you. I think it's okay to believe in love despite a broken heart. I think it's okay to have confidence in the unknown, simply to know that your life will be more than okay, but that it will be beautiful."
"Some people are like poison and can really affect your life negatively if you do not stand up for yourself and realize you deserve so much more."