i'm just sayin...

"Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there, because you can`t remember a time in your life when it wasn`t. But then one day you feel something else, something that feels wrong, only because it`s so unfamiliar. & in that moment you realize you`re happy."

my mind has been wandering a lot lately... i'm happy and i'm sad. i'm inspired and i'm confused. i love change but i hate it. i think i put too much pressure on myself sometimes to do well here. &honestly, things so far are really great.. but i always have a millions thoughts and new ideas and i just want to scream sometimes, or shut off my mind so i can relax.i believe that sometimes we all lose track of what really matters in this life. we can get so distracted every single day, and my hardest battle is fighting them.

"You must never compare yourself to anyone, except from the previous you."

i believe that everyone struggles. but that sometimes we need to give ourselves a break. you are never going to be someone else. so be a person you are proud of. and when you do beautiful things, take pride in that. and when you get lost, find yourself back to your inspiration.

"Trouble is part of your life. If you don’t share it, you don’t give the person who loves you a chance to love you enough."

as you can only imagine, i have encountered some very veryyyy fake money oriented air heads. and i am just hoping that i will meet people who have their head on straight. people with passion and desires. because i need those people in my life to keep me sane.
the good thing about stressful times here are my acting classes. it is my art. my therapy. it saves me.

"look at all the people around you and realize that every single person you see is struggling with something,

and to them, it’s just as hard as what you’re going through."

the truth is life is never going to be perfect. but it can always be worth it... i believe that you need to hurt sometimes to remind you of how lucky you are when you are happy. i believe the mind has more power than you could ever imagine. i believe that missing someone when they are sitting right next to you is the most terrible feeling in the world. i believe that sometimes you cannot understand anything, but that if you hold on to your faith that all the pieces will fall in place... eventually. & lastly, i think i need to stop pretending i'm okay when i'm not. stop pretending i don't miss someone when i do. stop pretending like i don't care when it's all i think about. stop pretending that i know what i'm doing when i am scared to death.

"The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse than it is, and the future less resolved than it will be."